Being sure of yourself and being confident aren’t things that make you happy. I just know who I am and I like who I am as a person. To tell you the truth, I don’t know why I am sad. I don’t know why I’m unhappy, but it just feels like I’ve been unhappy my entire life.

Maybe it’s because I feel like I have no purpose. I feel like I will never have the things I’ve longed for my entire life. My nephew passed away and I have terrible anxiety now. I don’t know, I just feel like being happy is fucking impossible and I’ll be this way for the rest of my life.

I don’t make sense.